DECISION
Many years ago I started using Instagram as an online journal of sorts. I was deep in depression, heartbroken, and in a very dark place. But I am a creative type and my mind (AND body for that matter) will not allow me to not produce.. so, I was taking pictures and even though at the time I did not really have words myself the poets I love did.. and those poets and the places where I sat in the silence taught me so much about how to live..
As I started to find my voice again I started writing more and more.. though I have never publicly shared the deep darkness that was there and probably never will..
Over time posting became a chance for me to see light.. to feel creative.. to feel whole.
and then I found the bike.. and the freedom of wind, and trails, and exhaustion, and exhilaration.. and the quiet places in me and on the trails.. so it also began to become a steady part of my creative lifestyle.
When I picked quilting back up after so many years I could not just drop this quiet side of myself.. this lover of wild places and quiet moments.. of stillness..
It is who I am in the genetic makeup of me.
So, I made the decision despite all the articles I’ve read. Despite all the advise of the influencers on ‘growing your brand’ to openly share both sides of my creative life. Because THIS is who I am. THIS is me.
Does it earn me all the followers? And all the free stuff? And a life of leisure? Have I become a traveling artist nomad?
Nope.
But it HAS given me a new voice and it brings me joy to share all of me.. well, most of me..
So thanks for following along on my ongoing journey through my life. It’s not that I’m so full of myself I think y’all want to be like me.. I just need a place to remember who I am deep down and the pages of a notebook do not do the trick.