Resiliency

Resilience: The capacity to recover quickly from difficulties..

These last few weeks have been trying to say the least.  We are all okay, but damn..  Every where I turn something requires my heartfelt attention.  I am grateful to have such love and the capacity for such love that I want to give it and do so easily.  I come back again and again to stores of strength I forget I have until I need them.  The one place I am struggling to give the attention due is to myself as I know it will come in time - right now, I am wondering when..  I am going to be honest folks and say I am tired.  I am worn slap out.  I need a break.. I am not depressed.  I am not sad.  And I am not lonely or longing for anything other than some span of time that I can call my own.. I am oddly content even in the midst of the chaos of living.. And, we have been in the thick sticky of life.  If you see me or think of me.. or see us or think of us.. send a little extra squeeze or well wishes on this glorious fall breeze.  For now, I'm going to zip up my hoodie and enjoy the setting sun.

 

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Order

Watching this day wake up and spring into life I was considering how sitting each day brings order to the mental emotional clutter of my heart.

The clearer my heart becomes the more I see the natural order of the universe, the seasons, and life...

the more peaceful I feel.

I like order.

It makes sense to me.

Even within chaos and growth there is a subtle order that is rooted in survival.