22 days into this Sitspot challenge. I haven’t missed a day, but they haven’t all been pristine or perfect. Most have been a struggle to accomplish. All have been worth it.
When I did this thing so many years ago I had all these preconceived notions about meditation and mind emptying.
I constantly felt like I was never going to get it. I was fortunate to have two mentors in particular who helped me create the foundation the practice would be built upon. Both taught me childlike wonder - really they opened my eyes back up to the childlike wonder I came equipped with - that we all come equipped with.. and only I can do something about the noise in my brain.. and that, I had to learn to sit with. After a few years with less intentionality to this simple practice I again feel the compulsion of just paying attention. Of being awake. I’m naturally an overachiever so I’m sure I’m going to keep going.. until I don’t. If you started and didn’t find it enjoyable don’t sweat it. It could be that it’s not your jam. If you did start it and wish you could have kept it going but can’t figure out how let me know. We can talk more about it. There is a reason only a small number of people ever “master” meditation and many of those retreated somewhere outside their ‘normal’ lives to learn and practice. This works for me - even if I’m writing while I do it.. I know that more often than not I’m just sitting here observing my mind and my surroundings.
Shoutout to mentors Mike and Rick