Enduring loneliness is almost invariably better than suffering the compromises of false community. Loneliness is simply a price we have to pay for holding on to a sincere, ambitious view of what companionship must and could be.
~ Alain de Botton
A Year in Moments
(A year in moments)
As every year is this one has been filled with wild places and moments.. adventures and quiets spaces.. children becoming adults, the loss of my grandmother, and the reality that my parents are not immortal. I took up mountain biking, took a new job, discovered more about myself and my needs, and learned to set boundaries and expectations as I move through this profound opportunity called living. I crawled my way out of a deep depression day by day with the help of my husband and my family. Thankfully, I feel more whole than I have in years. I let go of being for anyone else other than myself and found deep connection to life in loneliness and silence. I see the seasons echo themselves in my life, my love, and the way my needs speak to me. I feel a passion for the creativity and self I laid down to fufill the expectations others had of me. I am not looking forward to 2018 with intentions, resolutions, or desires. I am content to let things continue to unfold as it does.. Now is all I have... Moments, Family, and endless love.. That’s enough for me.
Illumination
Do not feel lonely. The entire universe is inside you.
~ Rumi
Stag
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is to high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.
~ Friedrich Nietzsche
